Being invisible was not bad,

Two weeks passed and it felt so good. Being “invisible” from social media is somehow, stress-free-ing. I got to finish most of my works even faster and I never easily get distracted.

I got texts from people asking me where have I been, why I did not post anything. Some of them even (still) asking me to promote things on my social sites, which I can only say “Sorry, I’ve deactivated my account, hm 😕,”. Most of them show their concerns and some of them assumed maybe I am currently having my finals (yes I am in my final week of my fifth semester) and I deactivated it because I need to stay focus. But, that is not the real reason of it.

Fact check: Malik’s favourite Starbucks drink is Caramel Macchiato.

I was not a fan of coffee back then. When I’m taking my Bachelor Degree, coffee has been a friend of mine. Not until the point where I brew the beans, yet. Maybe I’ll get to there soon.

Back to the assumptions thing, some of them try to dig in, hoping that I would give them an answer. But I said to myself that, the more you try to convince people, the more you see your effort as something, worthless. So, I just said to them that I’m okay and yes I will always be here if you need me.

I have been dealing with negativity for the past few weeks, not to mention some drama(s) that will only waste my time to talk about here. When I lay myself on the bed and start to recap everything that I did in a day, I had a thought on myself.

What do I get from being nice to people?

People might say that I am selfish but do I get something for being nice? Do people really care when I say something? Does my words even give an impact in their life? At one point, everything and everyone that I care, become pointless.

And what do I do next? I disappear.

Footnote: I will be having another paper tomorrow, Algorithm Design. May God ease everyone and all the best folks! Oh, I’ll continue this on the next post.

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